God I am tired.
I cannot remember a time when I have been this hopelessly tired.
Boo is still protesting against sleeping through the night and instead has made it very clear that she would rather not waste all that time just sleeping when she can nurse continually throughout the night while she’s sleeping. I, on the other hand, am awake most of the night because I have been lying on my side for far too long for fear that if I lie in any other position I will smother her, or that she will finally roll over for the first time — right off the bed and onto the floor.
It has been nearly two months since she has consistently slept through the night and we have begun to regularly modify our nightly routine in order to find something — anything — that works. She still goes to bed around 8pm but instead of nursing her to sleep in front of the TV, I now take her into our room and nurse her to sleep on our bed. Then, once she has fallen asleep, I carefully roll away from her and off of the bed, pick her up and place her in her bassinet. Sometimes she wakes during the transfer, but usually once we put the pacifier back in her mouth and ssshhh! her for awhile she falls right back asleep.
That is until 12:30am comes around.
Like clock work, she wakes up screaming around 12:30am every night and no amount of shhhhing or pacifying will soothe her. The only way I can get her to calm down is to offer the boob, so I inevitably pull her into bed with us and she nurses until we both fall back asleep. Until an hour or two later, when I am awaken to the sounds of a frustrated baby who has burrowed her face into my bosom only to find that she has been nipple-blocked by my shirt or the bedding.
This cycle repeats itself over and over throughout the early morning until either I am awoken to Bubba’s alarm going off or a well-rested, and well-fed baby blowing raspberries at me. It’s those mornings, when I am awoken by raspberries, that I will miss once she does finally sleep through the night.
Because she will eventually sleep through the night, right?
yes she will….it only took Natalie a year and a half….but I am sure you’ll be one of the lucky ones and she’ll start sleeping through the night once she’s on solids….I think it honestly isn’t as painful the second time around. In fact I probably am still sleeping while I feed Izzy this time….must be some sort of survival mode. Hang in there girlie…it’ll get easier soon….and like you said you’ll miss the happy raspberry morn-nins!
Yah, can’t fall asleep when the Boo might roll off the bed! We put the bed against the wall so the little one can’t roll off, then your mind will let you fall asleep too…
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Shoving the bed against the wall is a good idea — it’ll give us more floor space too for when I kick Bubba out of the bed.
I could have written this post until 6 months when we broke down and Ferberized (gasp!) which we actually did more because he wouldn’t fall asleep at all (not even from nursing!) Now he sleeps from 7pm to 3:30am for a quick snack and back down until 6am. And guess what? He wakes me up with raspberries coming from his nursery..
Yes, eventually she will sleep through the night. Blake just started sleeping through the night about a month ago and he will be one in May. I think I slept with him for probably 4 months or more….it was the only way I could function. I just couldn’t practice the Ferber method, it was too hard – I tried it for one night. You do what works best for you
The Ferber Method has been quite the topic of discussion around the house these days however it is always quickly followed by me screaming lots of profanities to the effect of “screw that.” I’m too much of a baby to Ferberize my baby.